The first of hopefully many

Given I am not telling anyone I am blogging I guess I am doing this for myself - to try and stay honest. I am overweight, obese according to my BMI though many to look at me wouldn't guess how much I am over my 'ideal' weight. The worst gain happened not long after moving in with my now husband, but I have never been a NZ size 12 since I was about 12, I was always the bigger of all my friends and tried to have my happy go lucky personality disguise the fact that I was unhappy, my weight being one of the driving factors but at highschool was many things. So now at 30 it is time to do something about it. I have tried many diets and been to the gym pre wedding in the hopes of being the perfect size 10 bride, no suprise it didn't happen. After many stints at weight watchers, trying the zone, atkins and pills I am stopping all the fad diets. A special at the local gym gave me a push to join again, I like going, when I start, it is the starting that is hard. 1 year ago I joined, went 4x a week for 2 months and that was about it. A few personal training sessions thrown in and a diet plan and I am heavier than when I joined.

So I have a plan, sort of, the eating plan I was given is easy to follow, and I like it. It works too. The idea is to follow that as best I can, however if I want chocolate, cake or ice cream I have some, just a little to satisfy a craving. And I have to go to the gym, if nothing else going does make me feel better about myself even if I can't look at myself in the mirror.

So today is day 1 of week 1, I weighed myself this morning and I have hit 112.9kg, first goal is to get below 110, then below 100.

I am under no illusions I will get to my ideal weight for my height - I think this is near to impossible without losing a limb or 2, though I would be happy to make it to 80kg and see how I go from there. I have a wedding in November next year, to be under 100 for that would be amazing and hopefully spare me from scruitiny from the family.

Wish me luck!